Set Boundaries That Draw People Near... Without Pushing Them Away

I don’t know why I thought it would be a good idea. I was alone at the center of Waco's tourism hub with my 2 bigs, a very rambunctious toddler whose only speed is FAST, and no stroller. 

Destination: The Magnolia Silos.

My oldest daughter’s choice: It was spring break and each big got to choose one treat and special outing  - and she wanted Jo’s famous cupcakes and a stroll around the grounds in the sunshine. 

I could have chosen a PDO day (I wish I had) but I believed in myself and Ellie (actually I didn’t - we were just out of time and I felt obligated to keep my promise). 

The whole adventure was doomed to failure and I knew it from the minute we arrived at the parking lot. 

Part 1: The cupcake line of doom

To procure a Magnolia Silos cupcake you need to wait in the Silos Bakery Co. line - which usually winds around the corner and up the street where you wait patiently, quietly, out of oncoming traffic for your turn. Noone told Ellie - we were chasing, catching, releasing her for about 30mins (how many gray hairs can a woman grow in 30mins?) before she was let loose inside the bakery while the other kids took their sweet time deciding which flavor cupcake to get. 

I could feel the anxiety (and rage) bubbling up inside of me - this was DEFINITELY a BAD idea, but salvation was within reach - on the other side of my older two’s indecision was the green space where toddlers could run and play to their heart’s content. 

Or so I thought. 

Part 2: Green space (a toddlers playground) 

Magical in theory. 

In reality:

Toddler is on a rampage sabotaging at least 5 different family’s game of corn hole, standing in and squishing the cupcakes I tortured myself to procure before realzing there are no fences in Magnolia- just lots of space, people, and most importantly - breakables. So many breakables. 

After running after and retrieving her 6 times in an attempt to leave my bigs to enjoy what was left of their cupcakes in peace, I could basically hear the timebomb inside of me ticking away. We were on the brink of a maternal Chernobyl.  

Abort mission. 

I’m done.

It's time to go home. 

I didn't need to do much work to figure out what my boundaries were in that moment - what was required of me to create a fun-filled afternoon out at the Silos was not within my possession - we needed to try again another time. 

This is where my morning nearly went even more pear shaped. 

I am the mom. I am supposed to be the leader//strong//together//calm one - part of my cultural upbringing leans me into embodying this in a stern, no-nonsense, “because I said so”, armored-up posture with my kids, and especially when I am basically swimming in mom-shame to begin with. I need that feeling to go away, and when I don't catch myself on time, I become a jerk so that I can stop feeling so powerless. 

What I have learnt about what I am pre-disposed to is that it cuts me off from my children in moments when we need connection with one another most.

I have learnt that I can ask for what I need, without demanding it. I can lead my children without controlling them. I can make an executive decision, and still be completely honest about where I am at and why I have decided what I have. ie: I can treat myself and my children with dignity, especially in moments when shame is doing its best to strip us of whatever dignity we have.

I was about to blow-up at my children, so we needed to leave. But my daughter had been looking forward to and planning this outing for weeks - In an attempt to save face, nurture my wounded pride and hide away from all the mom-guilt and mom-shame that was piling up inside of me by the second -  I could crush her creative spirit with one solid - “because I am the mom and because I can”... 

This is what I chose instead:

“Guys, I am very sorry to have to do this - I need to take responsibility for how poorly I planned out our week. I chose the wrong day for this and I own that. I also didn’t plan for the support I would need to have a blast with you today, and on top of all of that I am feeling very overwhelmed with fear for ellies safety, for your safety and to be honest, for what I am imagining the people around us are thinking about me as a mom. My fear and my pride has bubbled up out of me as anger, frustration and impatience. Please forgive me for being unkind, and for cutting our time together at the silos short. Please let me try again another time.”

My big kids looked at me blankly for what felt like an eternity before they leaned in and gave me the biggest, bestest group hug I didn’t even know I needed. Ellie even climbed in for some of the action. 

Ok mama, but could we try taking Ellie to the garden section for a minute first. I bet she would enjoy playing with us on the toadstools in the corner.” 

Ok. Let's give it a try.” 

They were right - they all had a blast, the toddler was more or less contained and I got to sit for 5mins at a time.

We made it to the car in one piece and then drove through Cameron Park with all the windows open while we sang at the top of our lungs. 

The Silos were a bust, but we had a pretty awesome day, and we got home exactly how I hoped we would: more connected and closer as a family. 

Mama friends, here is what I hope you hear:

  • You’re allowed to acknowledge you can’t do something if you don’t have the capacity to do it. 

  • You’re allowed to/should be setting boundaries with your kids if how you’re doing motherhood right now is filling your heart with resentment and frustration. 

  • Taking responsibility and being held accountable doesn't have to have anything to do with shame. I think they're badges of honor.  

  • You don’t have to pretend to be something you’re not to be a great mom. 

  • Don’t take your two your old to Magnolia without an extra pair of grown-up hands, leash or a stroller with industrial strength straps. It's just not worth it. 

I shared in depth about this experience in a Facebook I created and moderate called “Healthy Boundaries for Heart-Centered Women.” - If you would like to watch it, and catch up with a whole bunch of other free resources like:

- How to say no without ruining your relationships

- 31 Things I have learnt about boundaries from the Bible 

You can hop on over and join by clicking here.


Rooted... How tending to the secret place keeps you grounded through the storm.

One of the most valuable lessons growing plants has taught me is that growth truly is a mysterious and miraculous force, it is also a pretty straightforward process. .

To flourish plants need sunlight, water and good soil. Yes, each plant needs them in different ratios but if you give them what they need, growth will do the rest. .

I think humans are the same. I see it in myself, my children and my people - we need the right nourishment, and we grow. Sometimes we put waaaaay too much energy trying to “Will” growth into being, we should focus our energy on figuring out what they are and then making sure the right conditions are met. This is true with basic human needs, it’s also true of our higher aspirations. .

I know my body needs nourishing food, enough sunlight, movement, connection with other humans, connection with God and a healthy dose of solitude to flourish. .

Yet, sometimes I am forgetful about this very basic fact of life and I tear out ahead of myself and I for example, don't eat for 6 hours, sleep for only 5 and barely drink enough water to fill two glasses... oh and don't forget how I wash it down with copious amounts of caffeine - thats a recipe for winning right there (JK).

I found myself alone in the park on a sunny spring afternoon this past Sunday. As I spread myself out on the handmade family quilt and looked up at the foliage above and all around me, I noticed how all the trees had suffered considerable losses after the arctic storm that just 6 weeks ago, brought all of Texas to a screeching halt. Usually by this time of the year, our spring is in full force but the delayed onset of our usual beautiful greenery was especially noticeable.

I noticed the buds and imagined how in just a couple of weeks all will be as it should. The leaves matter - but these older trees (way older than me even) had root systems way deeper than the freeze line, and so despite loosing some of their beauty, maintained all of their strength - and so their beauty would return - all I needed to be, was patient.

I wondered about how much of my energy over the past few weeks had been channeled towards my own "greenery" - fragile beauty for the world to see and enjoy, but so very fickle in the face of bad weather.

I thought about how, were I to channel that same efforts into the soil around my root systems, how much stronger, resilient and ultimately fruitful my life's garden would become.

I have a giggle at my priorities sometimes, but the truth is that I can examine them and figure out what I TRULY prioritize.

My afternoon in the park by myself was in of itself a last resort to nurture my roots for the sake of my foliage as a weekend of to few hours asleep and a generous helping of toddler vomit wore at my margins and I felt myself fraying at the edges.

My own commitment right now has returned to my roots.

The roots that will sustain me through the winter, the roots that will anchor me in the wind. No-one sees the work or into the world of the soil, but we notice which trees didn't survive the ice storm.

I wrote this after my afternoon in the park, I hope it nourishes & encourages your heart as it did mine:


Sometimes when the wind rises up against you and you feel it in your branches... they sway, it plays through your leaves, and together with your dead and decaying limbs, some fall to the ground. 

Don’t mistake the movement for trepidation. Your trunk holds you firm, your deepest roots sleep soundly through the rustle. 

The pruning is no cause for alarm when your roots are deep, and at rest. The loss you feel is not loss, but clearing and then gain. 

Buried & unseen roots are what makes you strong and will keep you standing in the wind, not the celebrated foliage. 

You’re beautiful in the winter. Naked, but still there. 

You’re beautiful in the summer. Lush, winter’s faithfulness bearing its fruit. 

Onlookers relish only in what they can see, and use, and enjoy.

What will you relish in? What will you tend to? Where will you throw your nurturing? 

Towards the sky, where winds blow at your work? 

Toward the earth? Where only you and the One who sees into the darkness can go? 

Whose gaze are you tending to?

Leaves scatter in the wind. Deeply rooted, you’ll weather the seasons.


If you would like to dig deeper into designing, building and then protecting a life that feels like flourishing to you, why don't you head on over to a Facebook Group that I have created and moderate called: Healthy Boundaries for Heart-Centered Women  - there are a ton of incredible free trainings like "Whose Life Is It Anyway? Getting Clear On Your Priorities" and "31 Things I've Learnt About Boundaries from the Bible" as well as weekly live trainings and Q&A sessions! 

Be careful who you agree with...

It's happened at least twice in less than a week...

The opinions and judgements of others sunk in too deep, and left me swimming (ok, drowning) in the thoughts or assumptions and opinions and assessments of others. 

I woke up last Tuesday feeling like a complete and utter failure at everything. I don't even remember exactly why or how but know it had something to do with a to-do list that was left incomplete by a fraction of a margin. (ie: in hindsight - really not a big deal) - but to me in that moment, the judgement came down over, and seeped into my skin: failure. I barely made it up for air.

I woke up today feeling the same, except this time, rather than my own voice ringing it my ears - it was the chorus of the folks in the cheap seats or the background of my life, the people I barely (if ever) interact with, but whose opinion always seems to float to the very top of my awareness... mostly at those high stakes "crunch-time" moments.

I spent a good part of my morning rage cleaning at the frustration I felt within myself. Almost like I was trapped inside my own head, pleading my case against the verdicts handed down, lording over me.

I literally watched (or heard?) myself going back and forth with them - minutes (nearly an hour) passing as I contended for myself against an imaginary crew of faces and voices all accusing me of realizing some of my deepest, worst fears.

Then suddenly, a beautiful moment of clarity...

The rational part of me must have come back online, and after watching the mental ping-pong finally spoke up...

"hey Lauren - I am pretty sure you're asking the wrong questions, and focusing your energy on the wrong problem..."


"Instead of agonizing over who feels whatever they do about you and why, maybe you should spend some time asking yourself whether or not you actually agree with them... thats the problem isn't it? And if you do, why is that?"  

***Insert hard blinking here***

"Who cares what they think? Is that even your responsibility to manage?

"No its not ..."

"All you can manage, the only thing you have complete control over, is whether or not you're in agreement with them, with those voices... the rest is completely out of your hands... and not even worth your time or energy."


First of all - welcome to my inner monologue. ( I feel like we know each other really well now).

Second of all... that little exchange that happened earlier is a variation of what I realized last week too. 

There are little intrusive thoughts or judgments... things like...

"You're a failure"
"You can't do this"
"No-one cares"

They produce an intense emotional reaction which in me is usually ANGER - but beneath that are usually more vulnerable emotions like sadness, grief and fear.. anger just feels more powerful...

Which is interesting because what I need in that moment - is to reclaim responsibility for and power over my thoughts and the judgements I am making or agreeing with. 

I can take responsibility for myself, what goes on in my mind and I can choose something new, useful, good and TRUE to mediate on.

I think one of the most powerful boundaries we can draw is the one around ourself. The one where we limit the access the voices, opinions and judgements of others have to our thoughts.

When we draw strong boundaries around ourselves - we can create mechanisms by which we regulate or control who is allowed in, and who is allowed to take up space in our thoughts and our emotions.

This isn't the same as avoiding or suppressing them - thats not healthy or helpful.

Its actually the opposite. When we take full responsible for how we think and feel - rather than sit in blame or judgement over others for what we are experiencing - there is a much greater and more powerful incentive to steward them healthily and responsibly - because we know that the buck stops with us - we might as well get on with it and get the job done properly. 

The past week has brought into sharp focus how my mental boundaries need an upgrade - I am letting too much in, I am allowing too much to stay, play and mess up what is mine to nurture and lovingly care for.

Some questions I have found are helpful in this process are:
- Who is making this judgement about me? Why do they have this kind of access to my thoughts? Are they worthy of the space they take up here? 
- Do I agree with this judgement? Why?
- What is a more helpful/realistic/healthy and TRUE assessment/reflection of who I am?
- How am I pretending that what I think/feel isn't my responsibility to manage?
- If I could do one responsible/loving/healthy thing for my thought or emotional life right now, what would that be?  

How about you? What are some helpful ways you clean up your mental messes?


If you're curious about what your boundaries style is, I have created a quick and easy quiz for you to take... find that right here: